Would You Believe Me When I Tell You, "You Are The King Of My Heart"?

It's reached a pinnacle.



I fail at failing.

You can't get much worse than that.
Although I am a mean jam-jar-wrapper-and-decorator. From now on, this shall be my new title.

I've found an actual real life Adam Green/Moldy Peaches/Anti-folk too. Heavens above.

I fell off the wagon and into your arms.

Isn't that photo great? Toffee apples. Fireworks. Traffic jams. Fairground rides. Lovely, lovely, lovely.

Well, Friday was eventful. :)

I daresay, my social life has sufficiently increased this year - I feel rather happy.

And alas; I am the last of the Proactives. Oh dear. This must be solved. I must find a willing participant. But they are no nowhere to be found. No: they can be found - just not anywhere near me.

I wasn't too keen on "Sam's Town" but after watching The Killers on Jools Holland, methinks "Day and Age" will be a smooshing of "Sam's Town" and "Hot Fuss". I loved "Hot Fuss". The synths sealed the deal really.

I've been listening to happier music recently. Music you can sing along to and dance to. By dancing, I mean proper dancing because I can "dance" to anything. Apparantly my moves are cool and abstract. You heard it here first.

One day exactly until MGMT. I am very excited and I've been waiting a long time for this. Do not expect me to act rationally tomorrow either.



I don't want to be obsolete to you.

A Reduction In Mood

1. Which celebrity would you like to meet and why?
"Celebrity" is a funny word and one I don't like much. However, there are a great many musicians/bands I would like to meet.

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Listen to my iPod other wise my mind is racing. "Lovers In Japan" is a good song to calm you down or anything by Beirut.

3. One of your favorite quotes?
"As they take eye for an eye, until no one can see
We must stumble blindly forward, repeating history"
OR
"Oh, you are the roots that sleep beneath my feet and hold the earth in place."

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
I love Manchester and London, to be honest but I would like to live in America for a short while.

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Introvert.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
To be loved is a wonderful thing.

7. What's the most important thing someone you like has to have?
Honesty, sensitivity, artistic tendancies, a good heart. And a good backbone.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I've been in that situation. Cry. Feel angry. Be bitter. And then try and get over it. I'm not a man-stealer.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Oh, my lack of boyfriend.

10. Do you have a good body-image?
LOL

11. Is being tagged fun?
What now?!

12. What websites do you visit daily?
Myspace , Facebook, LJSecret and FBR_trash.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
The PBB.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
What is this tagging you speak of?

15. What’s the last song that got stuck in your head?
Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd
I'm learning it on my guitar.

16. What’s your favorite item of clothing?
My new shiny skirt. It's blue with blue polka dots. Or my tartan tights.

17. What's better: to give or to receive?
To give (:

18. What's the first thing you notice in people?
The way they hold themselves and their hair. And their backbone.

19. Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?
NO.

20. What were your parents going to name you if you'd been born the opposite gender?
I was going to be Patrick. A good strong Irish name. :P And it's my dad's middle name. My sister was going to be Oliver; which is a name I really like. :)

Up or down or upside down?

Oh dear.

The Blackpool trip is tomorrow.

Well, what I mean is - "yay" for leaving 6th form early and getting to wear non-uni. Also, it's a Wednesday so there will no nobody else at the park. :)

However, I am frigging terrified of rollercoasters. Even more so of the ones with just the lap bar. I don't mind the full over-the-head restraints because I feel safe. But dropping 205 feet with only a lap bar to keep me in does not make me feel at ease.

The only reason why I went on them six months ago was because I was tricked. I was fooled into believing it was not The Big One until I was near the front of the queue.

Well, now I know.

I'm going to try and go on the watery rollercoaster that I didn't go on last time, though. I went on my first big rollercoasters this summer. It was fun :) We were going up really slowly towards the first big drop and I kept going "I want to get off!". Amanda went, "It's a bit too late now."

It was the best ride I've been on so far. :D

Do you know who I think I am?

Me and Becky have actually started some kind of trend in the 6th form common room. Well, two people have taken up our idea but it's a start. (I still want TWISTER back though!)

It is the game of "Who Am I?"

I was given Ron Weasley, Hitler and Brandy Alexander. Aside from these, I was mostly given genderless, hermaphrodite creatures. What does this say about me?! ¬_¬

Becky was by far the funniest, though.

Example #1 : Becky as Herself

Becky: Am I a man? Everybody else: Erm...

Example #2: Becky as Red Power Ranger

Becky: Do I wear a suit?
Us: Yes
Becky: Is it a red suit?
Us: Yes
...
Becky: Am I a Power Ranger?
Us: Yes. So, which one are you?
Becky: Oh! Am I Blue Power Ranger
Us: *facepalms*

Example #3: Becky as Barack Obama?

Becky: Am I on a reality TV show? Do I dance? Do I have an afro?

*Cue everybody thinking of an afro-sporting, tap-dancing Obama in the Big Brother House.*

Oh, what a spoon you are, McMillan. :)

Our proposed trip to Dusseldorf is also on the way up. Renton and Midwinter are keen. Now, we must get past Mrs Tough. Just think; our German class. Three days in Germany. With no adults.

Yes please. :D

Oh, and finally.

Me: Am I male?
Becky: Yes, erm...well, no, YES.
Me: William Beckett?


We show our love in evil ways.

No One's Gonna Love You More Than I Do.

Well, Saturday was possibly the best Saturday I've had in a while. It was just a normal day in Manchester really but compared to the past couple of weeks, it was cool.

As previously mentioned, it was my mission to find a) part of my Halloween costume and b) to see this band (The Planets).

Victoria Station is a very confusing place. The trains stop at a different platform every time and I was meant to be meeting Becky but I had no idea which direction she would be coming from - you need to have eyes in the back of your head. I saw a man who was dressed in a full Scottish kilt with the tasselled socks, buttoned jacket and pouch, carrying a Boots carrier bag. It was a very strange sight indeeed. I was wearing my groovy tartan tights. We kind of matched. :) I also managed to walk in and out of teh train station without slipping. This is a rare and valued scenario.

Anyway, we found part of the costume. I got this black, strapless dress that is covered in lace and it's so wonderful. It's the kind of dress that you wear and you feel instantly happier. Which is ironic, seeing as though it's black - the most depressing colour. It shall be a good dress for dancing in too, I think.

We popped down to Zavvi to see the band at 3pm, which was the time they told me but it was delayed for half an hour. However, Becky managed to find Season 2 of Lost and bought that. I don't think she cares for the plot at all; she only watches it to feed her newly-developed addiction of Sawyer's Manly Dimples (TM). She came up with that phrase there. :/ Also, one of the guys who works at Zavvi looks like a younger, cuter, extremely skinny version of Captain Jack Sparrow. The headscarf, the eyeliner, the hair!

The live area of Zavvi is underground. I love underground things. There weren't that many who turned up to watch The Planets, which was a shame because they were really good. If I wasn't so good at being so inhibitive, I would have danced around like crazy because they are a Dancing Band. Indeed. Becky recently said that my music collection is devoid of Dancing Bands and I must agree that it is. I rectified that, however, by buying TAI...'s albums and Cobra Starship's mot recent album. They're super great for dancing around the house at night and singing along with (very loudly). Or for making up mini-dance routines in the common room during free periods in the 6th form.

The second band were called The Black Knights. They were kind of like the White Stripes, although they were just two men. The singer had a really good voice and he reminded me of someone so much but I just couldn't match the voice to a name. I'm still trying to figure it out :( The singer was also wearing a purple suit and we both saw him upstairs prior to the shindig, except I thought he was just dressing up as The Joker. Oh, how I fail.

I forgot to say - we met up with Keiran too, which was unexpected but good. And he made some interesting observations, such as the fact that Becky got checked out by some guys ;)


Proactiveness works!


I am re-employing Proactiveness this year. It is working! I am on friendly terms with one guy again and Nicole's Psychology class spent part of their lesson talking about how to set me up with this said guy. Methinks it'll end up badly though. Nobody but three(?) people know of my previous humiliation. Woe betide...

I don't want to lose you to the mainstream world.

Most random quiz ever.

And I bought the two most recent TAI... albums. They're really, really good and I really like William Beckett's lyrics; especially on Santi. Fast Times At Barrington High is great for singing along really loudly too and is a really "fun" album. Also, you should look up TAI TV on Youtube or iTunes - it's very funny. ^-^

The Planets on Saturday - I am looking forward to it but I must find my Halloween bits and bobs first. Here I come, charity shops (and Afflecks). I need a bowler hat, white gloves and a faux fur stole/cap. Any suggestions? I've found the perfect dress though: black and covered in lace. It's beautiful. I don't do it much justice. :( (Oh, I need fangs as well.)

And why can't I find the Desaparecidos album ANYWHERE? Argh.



(Sorry about the quality of the photos but they are screenshots after all ^-^ )

Three Cheers For Double Movie Marathons

There was a debate of sorts on Thursday and Friday about which film we were going too see on Friday night. However, we compromised in the end and went to see both: Tropic Thunder (Becky's choice) and Pineapple Express (my choice).

Tropic Thunder was quite good. I didn't think it was as funny as a whole compared to films like Dodgeball and Zoolander, but it was okay. Strangely, the ten-year old heroin gangleader was so huggable - albeit really scary and evil. There were a bunch of guys at the back of the theatre making growly noises and I thought it was part of the film for ages. *facepalm*

Pineapple Express was so funny. James Franco was really good in it. Methinks he had the best lines. I suppose you'd have to have a bit of knowledge about stoner culture to get a couple of the jokes. Apparantly, it's by the same people behind Superbad but I've never seen that film - I must get round to it. Becky has already advised me not to watch it with the parents. ;D

Also, somebody is being bloody terrible at subtle avoidance. Deary me.

I love Natalie Dee's cartoons/illustrations at the moment. You should have a look:

I never wrote one single thing for you.

Hm, I sense that these blog posts can going to be few and far between. I just keep forgetting to update - terrible excuse, I know.

Even so, its not as if anything exciting has happened in the past few weeks. I've started my final year in 6th form, which is a good thing. Around eight months until freedom. Sweet freedom. And then I'll be off somewhere, sometime to at least do something I like. However, the little problem of personal statements and uni applcations is slightly daunting, and to be honest its scary. For starters, I can't think of five unis that I actually want to go to. I have three, im Moment. I'm going to hope for the best. But what if I don't accepted to any of my top three? What if I end up going somewhere I don't like for the next four years? Well, I guess it's going to be three as I'm going to be in Germany for one year - I'm really excited but apprehensive at the same time. I think it'll be cool though :)

The thought of going off to uni is really super. Independence and silliness all in one place. I just hope there'll be people at whichever place I end up going to that I can connect with. Shyness is not an advantage in these situations.

Going back to 6th form, back to the future - I think that the goodness of free periods has worn off. Having two or three free periods a day seems fine to begin with but I have nothing to do. And sitting around for one or two hours irritates me. Therefore, I tend to go on pointless walks while there's no one else around. Also, I have no frees with any of m best friends, which is kind of annoying.

But the new deutshen Assistaent kommt! Having "lessons" with them is fun. We're meant to be doing topic-related work but last year it ended up with our former asisstant showing us his favourite internet game of "BumperBall" and talking about reggae.

A few gigs are on the way too. Unfortunately, I missed The Academy Is... as it was sold out - I was very sad. So then I thought, who else could I see soon? After a quick search I found that both Vampire Weekend and The Mystery Jets were sold out too. Tough luck. MGMT in November though! I cannot wait. I've been to the Backdoor Project a lot recently too. It's this tiny music venue where local rising bands play, mostly heavy metal and thrash and the like. Although last time, there was a decent band and then there was this strange threesome who played a mixture of metal and really bad rapping. It had to be seen to be believed. And I went to Academy Unsigned at Academy 3 as someone I know is in one of the bands. They were good, as per usual. There was a band who sang about pie. It was very funny. Becky-chan's pleas of "Blueberry pie!" were not acknowledged however; much to our chagrin.

Becky got picked up quite early so I was waiting outside for about half an hour. But at about eleven o'clock, a handful of people emerged from the Student's Union. One of them sat on a pillar next to me and started smoking but then a couple of his friends came out, so he went somewhere with the girl. The other guy, suprisingly, started up conversation with me. He was very nice and polite and he had a moustache. He told me how he'd been to see Jeffrey Lewis and his band of merry men. This was a musician I had heard of before but never really investigated, as it were. He told me all about it and about how he was like Adam Green, a fellow anti-folkie. I'd been to see Adam Green at the Club Academy in April - he was amazing. Back to the story, this guy has a moustache/beard thing going on. We talked and then his other two friends emerged from wherever and he shook my hand, told me to take care and left. I was rather sad; he seemed a lovely chap. I never even got his name. If you're out there: thank you for finally getting me to listen to Jeffrey Lewis, it's really cool. Kooky and naive and funny. Just the way I like it.

Also, according to Jodie, I go for "bad guys" - rather vague. Kat, blunt as ever, texts me to say I like "grumpy gits...you like grumpy, broken, mop-haired boys." I can't exactly say she is wrong. It's not my fault. It's just pure coincidence. Kat always seems to be right when it comes to these issues. So much so, she feels the need to tell the auditionees of "Les Miserables" that I have a back fetish, amongst other things. I do not have a fetish. XD I simply like backs. Like some people like muscles or six-packs (both of which I cannot stand).

So simply according to Holy Kat, here is my checklist for potential boyfriends:

• Grumpy
• Possibly depessed
• "Broken" :/
• Very skinny
• Tall
• Dark
• Handsome
• Musician

You must be out there somewhere! XD




Alas, I must now go.

Peace out.


P.S. I have also recently purchased a guitar.

I am beyond crap.

Here's the new KOL video. I like the exorcism theme it's got going on and it's a lot different from their other videos. And Jared is chasing a chicken! :)

Sex On Fire

Warning. Do not attempt sex on fire at home. Kings Of Leon are trained professioanls and attempting this could risk serious injury.

It's cold out here and it will be quite a shock...

You fit in with: Spiritualism 40% spiritual. 100% reason-oriented.
	Your ideals are mostly spiritual, but in an individualistic way. While spirituality is very important in your life, organized religion itself may not be for you. It is best for you to seek these things on your own terms.
Take This Quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Bananas :)

I've been sorting out my computer because I have way too many files that are gathering virtual dust and so I came along to deleting photos I didn't want anymore.

But while I was doing this, I noticed a repeated theme throughout various pictures of bands/musicians/other cool people.

Bananas.

Look!:

Bananas were the battlement of choice from Russell Brand and Noel Fielding on BFQOTY:

Peter and Carl:

Andrew VanWyngarden (MGMT):

The Strokes:

The Mystery Jets:

Klaxons:


Jeff Buckley:
Hmm...

Black Cab For Cutie?

Lykke Li ^^

I found this site a while ago but recently re-discovered it. Basically, it's when a band or musician gets in a black cab in London and the cab driver drives them around while they perform a song. It's a great idea and some of the musicians are amazing: Death Cab For Cutie, Fleet Foxes, My Morning Jacket, Okkervil River, Noah And The Whale and lots more.


They say:

"The sessions are all about great music and the venue strips this to its essence. We aren't picky about genre and will happily open the cab door to anyone who blows us away."

So, take a look if you can. :)


For extra illustration, here is a black cab with added cab driver! ^-^

Mosaic

So, I found this on The Life And Thoughts Of A Girl and thought I'd give it a try ^-^


Instructions:
1. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
2. Using only the first page, pick an image.
3. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd’s mosaic maker.


Here goes...


1. What is your first name?
Rebekah. I know of very few people who share the same spelling of my name so I was a bit curious as to what would come up. A lot of photos of someone named Rebekah Grayson came up but there was a vintage, newspaper cut-out of Rebekah Colberg, a rather inspirational athlete from 1932 - 1946. I love collecting articles and pictures - I make my end-of-year books out of them.
2. What is your favorite food?
Oh, I don't know! I would say potatoes. Very versatile and yummy. And then this lovely heart-shaped potato popped up.
3. What high school did you go to?
One in the Oldham region of England - I wonder what comes up :D Joe Donmall! :)
4. What is your favorite color?
Ah, I can't just pick one! I'll pick teal because I can't pick between green and blue. A really nice bubble-art print has popped up!
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
^o^ I feel bad picking between Conor Oberst and Zach Condon at this moment in time. So I typed in both. :D And only photos of Zach appeared!
6. Favorite drink?
I'm suffering Ice Tea addiction.
7. Dream vacation?
I want to stay in Paris. I have already been but I want to go again and visit all the hidden gems. One of the pictures I found was taken from a really unusual angle so I chose that one.
8. Favorite dessert?
Cold apple pie!
9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I want to be in a job that's different and quirky and combines media and music. I wonder what that comes up with it... An Architecture In Helsinki single cover art. :D
10. What do you love most in life?
Love...in all its shapes and guises. The picture was of lots of granite pots.
11. One word to describe you.
Shy = Little Miss Shy ^-^
12. Your Flickr name.
I don't have one :( I'll pop in this blog name in then... Oh look, a load of Kings Of Leon albums. :D



Click to see ^^

Amecon Anybody?

Finally - all the Amecon photos in one place. I must stress that not all the photos are mine but ask me and I can tell you who took them for I have handy filenames of truth!. You wouldn't tell I was a Virgo >.<

AMECON - Here I Come!

It's souled out in heaven!

I love this video - in fact, I love the whole album. It's wonderful :)

Argh.

Ignore the huge gap on the previous post. It always does this when I post any HTML template or whatever. >.<

And I don't know how to change it :(

Suggestions?

I've realised that I haven't created any icons in possibly months, mainly because most of them are crap.

Here are few I made today :)

1-2 Ian Curtis
3-4 Andrew VanWyngarden, MGMT
5 Adam Green
6-10 Beirut/Zach Condon
11 Albert Hammond, Jr.
12-15 Ezra Koenig/Vampire Weekend
16 Conor Oberst

1	2	3
4	5	6
7	8	9
10	11	12
13	14	15
16

Stop Me!

I am spending all my pennies on music. From tomorrow, if I even attempt to enter a record shop, you have my permission to steer me away, or flick me in the forehead if it comes to the worst.

My birthday is in 24 days! This calls for a merry jig around the room.

And my monkey bracelet is Teh Coolest. Far cooler than yours. It does the can-can and several karate moves, only rivalled by the guitar-busking-man in Manchester today who was pulling some groovy shapes :) And the jamming band were packing up as we walked past them for perhaps the third time. Alas. I was rather enjoying their music. :)

I bought the new Conor Oberst album. This calls for an even merrier jig. I have been waiting for this and now it is in my hands. He looks like a sleepy sausage on the cover art though, which can only be a good thing.
I also bought Fleet Foxes debut on the strength of one song (which filled my heart with joy) but I thought it was a wonderful song. I shall listen to the album in full after the Conor Oberst one, which is playing im Moment. Here is a link --> CLICK!


And I got Vampire Weekend on the strengh of three songs. I have heard only good things from them though so methinks it shall be a good listen :) And Ezra Koenig has beautiful coloured eyes. Indeed. Here is a funny video review I found - mainy because it is in pirate talk. Click? Arr me hearties.



That is all for today. I shall post some photographs from my jollies soon, if and when I remember.

On another note; my shoulder looks like that of a very old scaly dragon. Ew. Let that be a lesson to ye all. If you have unbelievably stupidly pale skin like me - be warned of the sun. >.< style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> ONE HOUR and have suffered bad burns to my back and shoulders and arms. Joy of joys. When people say life isn't fair - this is what they meant. Which leads to the question, what if you were very pale and you lived in a very hot country? What would you do then? Hmm...

Yes, I know

I know I've just posted about five minutes ago but I had a brainwave.

Have you ever seen PostSecret or visited LJSecret?

I was thinking, we could have the same idea with the PBB by employing our Photoshop skills and making some secrets of our own :)

By replying to a blog post anonymously with a link to an image, it shall all remain anonymous (or we could just know who posted it i it isn't too bad).

I think it would be a fun idea but what do you guys think?

Sunny Afternoon

Half a day left of year 12 and I most certainly do not feel in the summery mood that I am obliged to feel come this time of the year.

This is possibly because it's raining and I got a big raindrop in my eye while looking up to the skies.

I'm going on holiday and I really don't want to. Spending two weeks on a beach is my idea of hell, especially as I'm going with my family. Is it so bad that I don't want to go?

We should arrange a PBB holiday next year - it would be super awesome :)

There's too many loose ends this year - I need to tie them up quicksmart. I feel the frayed threads are blowing around in the wind and I can't reach out to pull them all together.
From now on, everything is out of my hands.

I found a really good song so I'll post some excerpts. It's by The Smiths :)



I know it's over
And it never really began
But in my heart it was so real
And you even spoke to me and said:

"If you're so funny
Then why are you on your own tonight?
And if you're so clever
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very entertaining
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very good looking
Why do you sleep alone tonight?
I know because tonight is just like any other night
That's why you're on your own tonight
With your triumphs and your charms
While they are in each other's arms"

Love is natural and real
But not for you, my love
Not tonight my love
Love is natural and real
But not for such as you and I, my love

Syd Barrett

Two years yesterday since Syd Barrett died.

"Won't you miss me? Wouldn't you miss me at all?"

Yes, yes we do...



""

Never before has my blog name been so appropriate.

*Cue hysterical laughter*

I Want A Lover I Don't Have To Love

You write such pretty words,
But life's no storybook.
Love's an excuse to get hurt,
And to hurt
Do you like to hurt?
I do.
I do.
Then hurt me.


I cannot stop listening to this part.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
And I found these cute little things:

[Es gab Bilder hier aber sie sind jetzt gebrocken :( ]

Many tears of emo-ness

Argh.

We're at the end of the first week of this bloody pointless "sabbatical" and I haven't done any work yet because I don't knowwhat most of it is.

I fear my texts are being ignored.

Yesterday was a a big fat blah.

I really have no motivation and I can't be arsed with 6th form now. Hello? We finished exams and I'm still stressed now o_O

Dear Lord, this is a deeply depressing post ;_;

XD

And at Kat's request - here is a completely unrelated picture:

I heard there was a secret chord....

I've just realised that I've heard six different versions of "Hallelujah" in the past two days o_O

Let's see:

• Leonard Cohen -The ORIGINAL
  
• Jeff Buckley - One of the most beautiful male voices I have ever heard
  
• John Cale - Velvet Underground!
  
• Beirut - Yay for Zach Condon.
  
• Rufus Wainwright - Although it missed out quite a few of the verses :(
  
• Regina Spektor - She has one of the most beautiful female voices I have ever heard)

Lovely, lovely, lovely.

A New Layout

Any thoughts at all?

And here is a video that I cannot stop watching because it is a rainbow shade of awesome:

My Future?

		I will marry Conor Oberst.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in London in our fabulous House.
		We will have 0 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Green Hippy Van.
		I will spend my days as a Designer, and live happily ever after.

No children? XD

Sounds good to me though :)

And don't ask me why it leaves a HUGE gap before the box...